HAPPY BIRTHDAY, JUN TING! =DD
hello! finally feel like updating after some time..
emm.. is getting high marks a sin?
obviously everyone would say no.
haiz everytime when i get back my testpapers
and feel quite happy about it, i just noe tt i must
not show my happiness, even a smile.
got back our Amaths common test paper.
was quite happy with my results.
then, ppl asked for my marks.
some compliments like.. "woa, so high..." came by.
must i say, "heehee, so happy!" or "hahs ok lar.."
obviously if i choose the fomer, ppl will simply regard
me as "showing-off".
yeapp, i chose the latter.
then, followed by, "walao like tt still say ok.. then what
about me.. you go away la."
lol, but i noe they're just jk
then someone will come and "tsk!" me, blah blah.
really very pekcek lor, dunno what to do.
why is it that when ppl get high marks, they can have
the right to be happy, but i just cant.
its because im afraid to lose my friends.
i feel so insecure when im with the KZs.
i feel that i cannot be my true-self when im with them.
im afraid that i'll do sth wrong and they might just ignore
me for the rest of the days, without telling me what's the
problem.
but i've thought it over.
if one day someone dun like me or sth, then i can just save my
care for the person. i have nothing to lose.
argh i dunno how to phrase it correctly.
i know my English sucks, i will improve myself =]
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7:51 AM