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* Sunday, March 15, 2009 *

haiz, still cant get over my lost phone.

i lost my phone the next day after Ah Lu passed away.
all the cute photos of Ah Lu has gone..
pictures tt i took when i last saw her
and now its gone.
all my contacts, things tt i stored in drafts,
the planners in my calender,
music, videos..
haiz i miss the presence of my phone.
sometimes i'll think.. will she miss me?
lol although it sounds retarded, but.. yeapp =S

haiz i dropped my phone while walking to Eunos mrt
from home. lost my EZlink card too, but tts fine.
i cried all the way from the mrt train [after talking to
my father on the phone]
in skool hall, in class, in canteen..
i'll think of my lost phone whenever ppl asked me why
am i so sad.
im really grateful tt my parents didnt scold me at all.
when i told my mother tt i felt sad for the whole day,
she gave me a "awww.." expression, and asked me
if i've paid attention in class in the morning.
QianNing is so comical lar, she consoled me by saying
tt she'd lost 4 phones in a year before.

actually at that point of time, i really dun mind ppl throwing
my phone away(but i dun think this will ever happen),
but just dun invade my privacy.
im really mad at myself for not taking care of my phone.
after talking to guowei, i felt much much better, cause at
least there's somebody who understands how i feel..
i feel tt when i told ppl tt i'm sad because i lost my phone,
ppl will just think tt.. its just because of a phone?? ohh..

haiz ppl will normally cherish things when they're gone.

REPLY OF TAGS!

jUnz-_<™;
hahs okie sure! =)

RuiQi;
hahs thnx =]

nicholas;
lol, its not you.. =)

yao;
hahs thanks, the story of your dog
is so funny =D

ME! =);
lol its not him, emm thnx =]

Jiajie;
hahs see you soon!

Fengyi;
hahs okie =)

jUnz-_<™;
lol okie =)

eugene;
you were there too?? how come didnt
have the chance to listen o.O

Shirley(: ;
okie =)

Jasmine(: ;
hahs okie sure =)

yourJUNIOR;
hahs! icic.. must play your pipa well okie!!
do your family proud =]

Fengyi;
hahs miss you too, get well soon!! =)

huiling;
heh happy be-lated valentines day to you too,
okie sure =]

an ex-classmate;
lol, hahs thnx^^

jUnz-_<™;
hahs okie, will relink soon =)

b-Randon;
hahs okie, will relink =) emm.. since when im
naughty = P

JiaHui; guowei; SINGHUI;
happy real belated CNY =S

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7:30 AM

* Tuesday, March 10, 2009 *

today, 10th March 2009.

today, AhLu passed away.

i can still remember the day when AhLu

1st came to my aunt's house.

she's running about, curious about everything.

last time, we'll spot her weeping alone,

perhaps missing her former owner.

from urinating on the floor,

my aunt trained her to clear her bowels in

the toilet,

listening to our instructions like- sit! come!

come eat! bathe!(bongbong) insects!(gaga)

here!(neh) byebye! herbal oil!(qing1 cao3 you2)

and others.

still remember when we said "qing cao you",

she'll walk away swiftly, because she's afraid of tt.

now, we could no longer hear her welcoming barks

when we reached the house,

the noise of the tingling bell when she walked around.

we could no longer see her stretching as she woke up,

could no longer see how happily she wagged her tail.

we could no longer feel her licking our legs,

could no longer touch her furry hairs.

we could no longer see the happiness when she had her meal,

could no longer see her rushing to the door to see who passed by.

we could not see how she drank her water from the big tank,

could not see the expression of her sleeping face.

do not feel lonely alone up there,

you'll always be in our hearts. always.

Rest In Peace, AhLu.

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8:32 AM

* Monday, March 09, 2009 *

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, JUN TING! =DD

hello! finally feel like updating after some time..

emm.. is getting high marks a sin?

obviously everyone would say no.

haiz everytime when i get back my testpapers

and feel quite happy about it, i just noe tt i must

not show my happiness, even a smile.

got back our Amaths common test paper.

was quite happy with my results.

then, ppl asked for my marks.

some compliments like.. "woa, so high..." came by.

must i say, "heehee, so happy!" or "hahs ok lar.."

obviously if i choose the fomer, ppl will simply regard

me as "showing-off".

yeapp, i chose the latter.

then, followed by, "walao like tt still say ok.. then what

about me.. you go away la."

lol, but i noe they're just jk

then someone will come and "tsk!" me, blah blah.

really very pekcek lor, dunno what to do.

why is it that when ppl get high marks, they can have

the right to be happy, but i just cant.

its because im afraid to lose my friends.

i feel so insecure when im with the KZs.

i feel that i cannot be my true-self when im with them.

im afraid that i'll do sth wrong and they might just ignore

me for the rest of the days, without telling me what's the

problem.

but i've thought it over.

if one day someone dun like me or sth, then i can just save my

care for the person. i have nothing to lose.

argh i dunno how to phrase it correctly.

i know my English sucks, i will improve myself =]

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7:51 AM